It’s Story Time

My first go at writing this post was quite inorganic to how I typically express myself, so let’s have another go at it!

For as long as I can remember I’ve LOVED sleep…

I found so much comfort and peace in a place that my mind could turn off.

I didn’t know this then, but I know now that my environment was quite anxiety-inducing for me as a child and I just needed a place to find peace. I remember praying that we would be stuck in traffic for longer on our commute back from school. I think my reality just felt so heavy to carry and I didn’t know how to manage it so I would just run away from it.

I was a high achiever throughout school but the amount I slept just made me seem lazy. I internalized that label of laziness and believed I was the problem. I didn’t realize why I was doing what I was doing. I knew I actually loved learning and working on assignments but I struggled to actually focus and get the work done. So I accepted the words that were spoken of me.

Don’t ask me why my arm is bent like that.

In university, the battle with depression began.

And I would just sleep throughout the day unless I absolutely had to show up for classes or a deadline was creeping up. I thought I was struggling because I didn’t have the university experience I was hoping for…let me not downplay it. It was the ideal nightmare of a college experience. So when I moved campuses and things didn’t change I knew the issue was deeper than my current circumstances.

Through counselling, I have been able to understand different aspects of who I am and what I have experienced that has limited me in different seasons and on a daily basis. Over time, I’ve learned how deeply connected the times and seasons in our lives can shape the time we have available to us.

If you are a person that knows what you are capable of, but experiencing internal resistance to achieving your potential, I’m sure you easily get discouraged sometimes. My hope is that my vulnerability in sharing my story, and what I have found helpful, will empower you to take charge of your life. Your time is your life and I am determined to show you how you can live out that purpose without any limitations.